With a Black Girl's Soul

MOVED.

2009-05-01T00:56:00.001+08:00

i've changed my blog.
(:

if you talk to me, you'll know where to find me.
and if i like you, i'll leave my link on YOUR blog.
ღ

bye.

unbelievable.

2009-04-27T14:20:00.002+08:00

this cannot be happening again.
it cannot.
it just can't.

i'm not strong enough.

to you the greater being up there,
I beg you to clear the clouds in here.
a storm's brewing inside.
I know you only give us what we deserve and what we can handle.
I'm not so sure, I can handle this again.
please, let everything be okay.
Let him come home.

my head hurts.

you make me feel.

2009-04-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

this feeling's like no other.
I want you to know;
I've never had someone, who loves me like you do.
the way you do.

it's unbelievable how you make me feel the way I feel.
you brought me in to be a part of your family.
you brought me in to be a part of your very awesome Luminiq.
and you took the biggest risk of all,
bringing me in to be a part of your life.

by far, this is me at my happiest.
knowing that there's nothing more safe to the heart.
I love you very much.
and I'm glad we're in this together.

there's no one in this world, I'd share this feeling with.
cause it's way too strong for anyone other than you.
(:

demented.

2009-04-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

all i need is a kiss on the forehead.

my heart likes the view.

2009-04-23T01:21:00.003+08:00

it's safe to say you're the best thing that happened to me.
every night before I go to sleep just thinking about you, tears roll down.
Just being thankful that I've got something great here.
From your surprises, to your little butterfly kisses, you make me feel like the queen of your heart.
and cause we got a good thing going on here, I can never see the day that we'd part.
Cause we're here to stay(:
I love you.
I swear now, those 3 words are an understatement, cause what I'm feeling is way stronger.
Honestly, I've never felt like this for someone before.
This is, hands down, more than love.

On a side not; my body is penat.

back to school.

2009-04-20T14:41:00.005+08:00

a girl's first day in school, was mundane.
it's still ongoing till about 4ish of the day.
I'm sleepy, after I ate.
Animalistic behaviour, I know but I swear sometimes it's like we're all in the Savanna's.
With the leader of pack, guiding us through class, and the little offsprings leaving the puny one at dead last.
But for my case, it's Chinatown here.
No matter where they were from, they all go "ching chang chong ching chung" oh so loudly with beady little eyes then you can shut with a rubberband.
Sorry for those who sense a pinch of racism here, but, no. No buts. Nuff said.

Weh.
School am tired.
I is tired.
and I don't think anyone wants to say it.
I swear, this picture is awesome((:
and I think, they throw all my bad aura away. yeahh.
and Vicky, you still always wanna outshine.
Just like you did in the Power Rangers movie.
-_- Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

and this boy.
I LOVE THIS BOY.
Makes me smile, makes my tummy smile, makes my insides come out and smile, makes my outsides go in and smile. you just plainly make me smile.
(:
Sayang you lah sangat.
Oh and love us too.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
THERE'S GONNA BE SUBWAY IN RP BY 4th MAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOO!!!!
*chants* SUBWAY SUBWAY SUBWAY SUBWAY
SUBWAY SUBWAY

like a first date.

2009-04-19T04:23:00.000+08:00

today was just bliss to live through.
minus the lame event I had to perform for, every other second was much loved and well spent.

unlike the 4th it's the 18th we're gonna rock.
hee, our little secret.
with our own rules and exceptions.
I love the fact at how well we both know each other at this stage.
hoping nothing to fade, and will remain intact on home base.
(:

I love you very much, and I still see us ruling the streets of Paris~

Oh and B, I did this at 2.30am(:

won't let you go.

2009-04-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

and I just can't go another day,
without you next to me.
And I don't know what to say.

when you've got something good in life, you'd want it to stay for as long as possible.
but the thing about the best things in life, is that you always are wary on whether they'd be there in the morning.
and when I wake up in the morning to you or your messages, I'm thankful and feel so blessed.
I'm not gonna think about the future with you, I'm not gonna reminisce the past with you.
But I AM gonna stay with you at present, living life together day by day.
(:

Jam and Hop was good.
The company was awesome.
The boyfriend was perfect.

ok dah.

Happy Birthday to you.

2009-04-12T12:20:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Muhammad Afiq!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(((:
I hope you liked your presents, and that mini celebration of yours.
Heee~ you still have the rest of day for you to rule.
Luminiq, and me will always have you in our hearts.
Always, and oh!! I love you very much.
Happy 20th cinta!
<3

we belong together.

2009-04-12T03:14:00.002+08:00

tears roll when I saw your face again.
embraces so tight, skies of grey dissapear.
cause really, after all this time.
it's this time, I've been waiting for, it's to have you come back to me.

I've missed you, and still do.
every moment will be cherished.
I'm living this day by day, not looking back at the past or looking forward to the future.
what's important is, now.

(:

to hope that one day, you'll find it to trust me, and tell me things that you keep secret.
sucks to know, there's a lot I don't know.
it takes time, I know, and yes take all the time you want.
cause I'll still be here.

I love you.
always have, nothing's gonna change this.

a promise.

2009-04-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be a tough road to go through.
but thank God for my Luminiq.

Seriously, if it weren't for you all today.
I'd be a mess, and probably turn unstable.
Especially to Fiqsion, Vicky and Spyro and Ivy.
You all are my bros fo' real and Ivy, my sista for life.
Thank you for standing by me today.
And like I told Fiqsion, you all are what I need to pull me through this rough phase.
I know how stressed out you guys were on breaking the news to me.
How you all worried, it was all very sweet.
I love you LMQ.
I'll have your backs, fo'sure.

and to my dearest baby boy,
take care of yourself.
stay strong for me.
be the trooper I know you are.
I'm not mad.
I'm not upset.
I'm just very very very worried.
and because of that, I'm not okay.
Like I promised, I'm not leaving you anytime soon.
I've waited for you for a month before.
The only difference between then and now is that, this time, we're on our own.
I'll be missing you.
I'll always love you.
Cause this girl is for keeps.

I'll be right here where you left me, waiting for you to come back to me. With open arms.

it's been so long.

2009-04-05T01:58:00.002+08:00

it's almost a month now.
and I swear, I'm amazed at how I'm handling this.
You'll be proud of me.

Read through all your letters and little IMs.
it's as though you're still here.
cause my heart is wherever you are.
ironic how we're both feeling the same way, with no sense of interaction.

with such strong bonds with the rest of the fam.
there's no way, I could repay my gratitude to them boys and girl.
to thank is nothing, to be there guarding your backs I'll assure fo'sure.

to think of you every second, hurts.
I miss you very much, so much that it's painful sometimes.
This phase to end, will be the end of all hurt and pain.
To start anew, and live life stronger.
This time, together.
All of us.

just let me go.

2009-03-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

it sucks to know you treat me like I'm 9.
seriously, I'm 19.
Next year, I'll be 20.
How long more you wanna treat me like this?

Any longer, I might just crack from patience held eons ago.
I might just leave.
Just think about it, and realize what I've been.
If it's about the drawers and the lights, please lah.
Seriously, you have got to be kidding me.

And let her be, cause she has me to catch her when she falls.
We don't tell you anything at all, BECAUSE you're like this.
what's there to share, unless good grades, good compliments, pay, scholarship or whatever nonsense comes into the picture.

just so you know, the smarter the people are doesn't mean they're the best people.
cause honestly, i know a few, and they SUCK.
they're worst than animals.
welcome, to the real world, where apparently we're all living in.
you just refuse to see it.

Nuff' said.

Happy Birthday to you.

2009-03-28T01:24:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADIK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know you've put A LOT of planning into your party today.
I'm sure everyone enjoyed, and minus the drama that happened, I know you had fun as well((:
Drama happened on my birthday, and yours as well. Sisters fo'sho.
We've been there for each other for all our lives.
Gone through rough times and good times.
Whatever it is, I'll always love you.
You're a year older now, whatever I say to you will be just advices and opinions, the decisions you'll learn to make yourself.
And I'll be there to catch you if you fall(:
I love you adik, very much.
Happy Birthday, lil sis.

Your present will be coming soon, sorry for the delay.
*tear*

the light at the end of the tunnel.

2009-03-25T23:34:00.003+08:00

when I thought these were the darkest of days I had to face.
you proved me wrong.
cause just 2 days ago, you sent me a letter.
A letter with just one look, triggered my tears.
it showed me you were okay, and that you still remember.

throughout that whole 'storytelling session', I couldn't control myself.
cause you proved me wrong, again.
you stayed with me, and just chased all my wild imaginations away.
if you were here with me now, I'd tell you how much you mean to me.
and how afraid I am of losing someone like you.
cause you're anything but ordinary.
I love you more than the stars in the sky can shine.

1 week to hopefully good news.
2 more weeks to freedom.
3 more weeks to his birthday.
4 more weeks to school.
5 more weeks to the end of april.
6 more weeks to most probably the last week of being without you.
I miss you, alot.

and LMQ, they are such steady pillars of strength for me to hold on to.
thank you, mucho.

Happy Birthday to you.

2009-03-21T01:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope you like what we had planned for you(:
Enjoy the 18th year of your life aite.
Luminiq has your back, and go Halim~ do the stanky leg.
Nyahahhahaa.
Happy Birthday, again.
(((:

and it hurts.

2009-03-19T06:33:00.002+08:00

And everytime I see you in my dreams,
I see your face, it's haunting me.
I need you baby.

I make believe that you are here.
It's the only way I see clear.

it hurts to not have you around. the pain will always surface.

a little up-to-date.

2009-03-16T20:03:00.002+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO LUMINIQ.

top 8 in Singapore's Best Dance Crew.
and still working hard to continue on climbing the ladder.
i'm proud of them bros, no doubt.
honestly, from your medic/manager/sister love.
whatever you all wanna name me okay?
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(:

I've been coping with the change in my life.
Not easy, but I'll live.
LMQ's making it easier for me, and I love them for that.
and not forgetting my one and only sistahood in there, for keeping my sanity in place(:

I can't wait for school to start.
It brings everything closer.
I miss A and Jo.
No, I didn't forget you.
We're still Amigas Cheetahs.

I miss you, alot.
the hurt will be there till I see you again.
June it'll be.
Ironically, the scene of seeing you again plays in my head.
Motivating me through this.
I love you.
Always will.
Your girl's here to stay, take my word for it.

regrets.

2009-03-10T23:53:00.004+08:00

I swear I hate taking up this attachment.

waste of time.
lack of sleep.
lesser time with the people who I care about.
and it's just a complete nuisance to my life.

I miss my girls.
and it's like they're all taking a step away from me as each day passes.

New friends.
New this.
New that.
as much as I'm truly happy now, I still want more time on my hands.

there's a lot I wanna say but I'll be told not to think too much or be more understanding.

issues; need tissue.

2009-03-09T00:40:00.004+08:00

sometimes i wish i could be the one.
but none of us can foresee what happens.

i'm taking us day by day.
cherishing and treasuring every moment with you.
and with you, I'm happiest.
your smile, is priceless.
and I'd like to see that everyday.
especially when I give you little little surprises, just to brighten to your day.

in so little time, I've felt so much.
and no, this time round it is different.
please, let me be there for you.
cause it crushes the beating organ to see you like this.

and to you, whoever you are,
nothing's gonna come between us.
make us stronger, yes.
but it won't bring us down.
cause if not him, I'm not letting it happen.
so please, chill mama.
life's like this.

LMQ, and baby(: thank you for coming down for danceworks.
A and Jo too, adik and mummy and aunty tina as well.
Love you mucho.
Meow~
and LMQ, I enjoyed the after party as well.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeee.

and no, I'm not letting this go. Got your backs, nuff' said.

trust me when I say, it's us against the world(:

like the first time.

2009-03-07T01:32:00.002+08:00

a very familiar feeling.
i've done this before.
but, it feels so foreign the next time round.

the butterflies running in and out of the body.
the nervous chattering of teeth.
the shivering hands.
H.E.L.P

will you be in the front supporting me?
will i make you proud?

PLACE TO BE AT ON 7th March; Plaza Singapura @ 3pm. Danceworks 09'

pushed my buttons.

2009-03-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

I did not give up on you because of your lack in everything that's supposed to be there.
I did not give up on you because you disappoint.
I did not give up on you because you don't listen.
I did not give up on you because you did not improve
I gave up on you because you think you're all that and your attitude was disgusting.

please know it frustrates me to think I was there, and one last step you had to cut the rope and leave me to fall.
BUCK UP OKAY. BECAUSE NOW, YOU'RE ROLE MODELS ARE ALL THE WRONG PEOPLE.
there's so much I can do to help you, but if you're not helping yourself, there's no purpose in my place.
good luck, you.
all the best.
do YOURSELF proud.

Boyfriend, at this point of time.
Your hugs are what makes it all okay.
And I'm sorry about everything that happened today.
They suck uh, serious.
I love you very strong.
<3

LMQ, sayang korang lah many many.
Sorry to you all especially, about today.
For almost a month now, I can safely say most of you are like brothers to me.
I'll have your back.
For keeps.
(:

there's no place like us.

2009-03-04T00:33:00.003+08:00

i ~~like~~ love this new family.
cause you all rock like crazy(:
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
yes, Luminiq.

and i love you.
cause now we can face the world, together hand in hand.
no secrets.
cause from today onwards, we're in this together.
(:
yes, Afiq.

and to BOTH parties, I'll always have your back no matter how many times I have to kneel on 'kimchi-ed' grass.

to the ones I treasure.

2009-02-28T13:11:00.002+08:00

Updates on my birthday celebration will be on the way.
For now, just a little shoutouts and thank yous.

To my family; Aunty Tina, Mummeh, and Adik <3
Thank you for always making sure I have something to come home to, and know that you are the ones who will always be there no matter what grudges or hurt have been done. Cause for us, blood and time will heal all pain.
I love you all mucho(:
And thanks for turning the average cake of every birthday to a special shepherd pie for me. Heeeee.

To SGC;
All I can say to you guys, is thank you for coming.
(: Appreciated.
And the cards and presents, I received will be very much treasured.

To my boys; Syafiq and Jason
Thanks for the cake in my face.
Thanks for making me THINK HARD on my birthday.
Thanks for being the boys that rock.
(:

and the lovely cards(:
To my girls; A and Jo
Thanks for all the planning.
And the love throughout my years I've known you guys.
A, especially.
with the both of you, I know I've got my back taken care of.
with all of our cheesy boy-stories and our squirms in our little melodramatic love lives, it will always be a chapter in my life with a gold page(:
I love you both.

To Luminiq;
I know I've only known you guys for about a couple of weeks or so.
But this is from the bottom of my heart you guys, you guys to me are almost as close as family to me.
And I wanna thank all of you for being there during my chalet and the birthday.
Cause really, LMQ, you guys rock my world and and and and are the most nicest caring people I know.
THANK YOU(:
I love you all like a million cili padis!

To my ghetto one;
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
I love you for being there for me no matter what happened.
I love you for being there when I was in a mess.
I love you for giving me the soft fries.
I love you for the way you mess with my head.
I love you for the surprises you always have in store for me.
I love you for the chocolates you eat.
I love you for the cheese you eat.
I love you for the way you love me.
I love you for being you.
I SAYANG YOU LAH ALAMAK.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
and i wanna say, thank you for being who you are.
we will work out, we just need time to let the things we can't control fade away.
and everything that was almost perfect, will be perfect.

The best birthday to date.
Honest.
Minus all the drama and some people.
LMQ made it the best still no matter what.
(:

a note.

2009-02-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

what i said, if you were to ask me when I'm sane.
you'd know why I said such things.
I know what I said, and why I said it.
I kept it all cause it was you I didn't want to burden.
And for now, I regret it because it caused us to be more complicated than it already is.

you don't want me around.
okay, but you know I won't leave you hanging.
so, I'm sorry if I disappoint you tomorrow.
and I want you to know, you made my birthday extra special(:

and that, you still feel the same way.

when a girl's down.

2009-02-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

she seeks solace in cooking.
till the wee hours of the morning.

i look fine and happy.
but no, i'm not.
i'm taking this one on one blade at a time.

(:

yes, i'm turning 19 in a day or less.

delirious.

2009-02-22T14:57:00.002+08:00

a week has passed.
and a million of emotions just run through my head.

dance has been progressing.
somehow I miss SGC.
but mostly, I miss dancing freely on my own.
weh.
but it's okay.
disappointed.

work sucks.
I don't like it all.
and! it made me leave my wallet behind.
and because of work, I can't see my girls, and the person I love so often.
sad.

and to my ghetto one,
I really ~~like~~ love what's going on now.
it's almost perfect.
I'll still wait for our time to come, patiently.
you know how I feel about you, but honestly, I'm very afraid.
and with the things you're facing, it hurts to see you go through it and there's nothing I can possibly do to make it go away.
will you tell me everything will be fine?
love.

quoted by QUE; Day 26 " if you love someone, you gotta make it work"

through the wire.

2009-02-17T23:15:00.003+08:00

pick me.
choose me.
love me.
cause I'll rock the world with you in hand(:

from the first time our time was spent together, I felt it was special.
and now, when our time is gonna be taken away from us, I still feel it being special.

I appreciate the fact you always make me so happy and excited to the places we go despite Singapore being such a small dot.
If this weren't on the radar, I'd be posting the happy moments we've already shared in so little time.
I can only imagine more of such moments to come, and trust me I AM looking forward to it.

knowing your situation, I want you to know that you're the best part of my day always.
and always remember what I told you on the 14th.
whatever happens, WE'LL work it out, promise.

don't forget me when you come home(:

work sucks.
i miss my girls.
i miss you.

St. Valentines

2009-02-15T13:56:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines(belated!) to all(:
So didn't plan on the meeting with the favourite woman, and so didn't plan the outfit.
She met me halfway, and it was a good halfway to be met with.

The day as a whole.
Was exceptionally just beautiful.
hustling the streets, going to first-time places, and just spending quality and an unbelievable time.
I enjoyed it very much, smiling from the inside out.
I felt like a kid again(: Thank you, you.

And to this very important woman in my life.
I want you to know, I get almost exceptionally good grades in school.
I'm working hard in school.
I don't club.
I don't smoke.
I don't come home pregnant.
I don't sneak out of the house.
I come home before curfew and all the timings you give be it unreasonable or not, I'll still follow.
The one thing I'd ask for is for you to trust me with the friends I have. Cause I know what I'm doing, honestly. You know I wouldn't hang out with a professional killer. Maybe one day, you'll see I'm really the girl you raised me up to be, or maybe better.
I love you mum.

because I do.

2009-02-11T00:38:00.002+08:00

to know that you're there.
and we're here in this mess.
it's heart-breaking.

but I'm not going anywhere.
I'll be like a shadow, right here beside you.
because I love the way you love me.
our time will come, I hope.
and we'll take on the streets like the king and queen.
please.

and favourite woman,
you made me tear you idiot.
because I read your blog.

when phases change.

2009-02-07T01:14:00.003+08:00

it's been awhile.
I've been busy with dance and life itself.
So much to the fact, I think I'm an insomniac.

I'll make it work, somehow.
I have to, cause I'll be starting work on tuesday till the 10th of April.
Gonna miss out on a lot in the IG.

and life is fun and funny.
it's ironic how things turned out the way the are.
and how I was caught up in such a situation, and now I affected such a situation to happen.

confused much.
and to think you start missing things when it's gone.
now, tell me would you do the same if it were me?

Amigas Cheetahs, for life.

2009-01-31T14:40:00.009+08:00

So on Thursday, I went out with this group of girls.
And to tell you the truth, I've never felt so strong about such a sisterhood before.
So different, yet so similar.
I'll always have your backs okay, no doubt.
So, went to Far East, City Hall, Bugis and back to Far East.

We had a lot of laughs and tears throughout our journey.
I still didn't get to find boots for the competition.
How lah, like that.

So pictures galore, from here on out.
And Girls, this is the first of many outings to come okay?
Mucho loves.

and 552, I swear I miss you.

a wish made from the heart.

2009-01-28T18:19:00.002+08:00

I passed my Final Theory Test(((:
One more leap before I can get behind the wheel, and look fly in my ride.
-kening naik naik-

Had Subway with the Favourite Woman.
One word; we've got girls, we NEED money! For very essential luxuries. Heeeeeeeeeeeeee.

This goes to you;
Once asked to walk around aimlessly, and just so you know I'd love for that to happen.
Just you and me, aim-less.
(:

I'm not ignoring, I'm just missing. You.

calmate.

2009-01-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

there's so much I want to say.
alot I want you to know.
but afraid of risking everything that's been put on the table.

as slow as it goes, it'd be fine.
cause they say good things take time,
but really great things happen in a blink of an eye.
so i'll keep on blinking, heh corny.

*nobody, nobody but you.

broken wing.

2009-01-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

had dance practice with Hakim and the girls yesterday at YP.
I'm very excited about it, and how it's all gonna look once it's all done.

Met up with Marsh first at Orchard, had lunch at Cathay then went off to YP.
Funniest part was when we running around at YP like two crazy girls.
Just because of ONE BEE. Hahahahaha!
I think that bee was attracted to Marsh, cause she tak mandi.
Right Marsh?! Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee((:

Practice was tiring, but also very fun.
So fun that now, I can barely move without overwhelming any pain incurred already.

My neck hurts, somehow sprained I think.
If my thighs could talk, they'd be screaming.
And my back, don't let me get started on my back.
Bottom line, I feel like a hospital patient.

Oh and I don't think he knows but M.K made my day yesterday.
Seriously, you never fail to make me smile.
(:

*and I can't wait to see you again.

when perfect is happy.

2009-01-24T13:28:00.003+08:00

a diva is a female version of a hustler.

I'm very happy and the decisions I've made.
My life has been very fulfilling recently.
At times like this, you know who's true and who's not.

I'm so glad I realized which ones are worth fighting for.
with the favourite woman, Joann, Aminah and Marsh.
There'd never be a dull moment.
Please know, I <3>

Yesterday's session at the IG was awesome.
Gin came, like finally! We did routines to Swagger like Us and Heavy to Breathe.
Different, but I like it.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

and then danced around with Azura, Joann, CA, sometimes Syafiq and Rey.
FUNNY STUFF.
then I kena seret across the floor by CA! tsk. bongok.
and the boys decided to pile themselves on top of Zoo and I.
aiyohh, as I'm typing this I feel so penat.
HAHA.

Then we played Charades, after playing the best-boy-girl-group-ever-heard-of.
So hilarious, hahaha!
and there was no time limit, so you can only imagine how long we took.
((:

Soon, I'll be off to practice for Danceworks at YP.
The team's interesting and I can't wait for what Hakim has in store for us girls.
Ok dah, so long.

Live life to the fullest people!
Peace.

*to take things as it goes, would be more than perfect. no holding back.

can we chill.

2009-01-21T00:50:00.005+08:00

I'm not sure of what I see,
Cupid, don't mess with me.
Are you telling me this is a sign?

Thank God I have my girls to keep me sane.
Seriously, I don't get like..........................................

IT.

smiles; fly high.

2009-01-18T23:36:00.009+08:00

Us @ Funkamania(:

yours truly.

mi latina!

sorry guys, we borrowed your helmets(((:

we look like happy blind people! hahahaah.

This is happy(:

(:

*like a babygirl

when all clouds become 9.

2009-01-18T03:39:00.002+08:00

Congratulations SGC(:
So proud, no doubt.

Congratulations Fantastic Crew(:
So proud, no doubt.

Went to Funka with M.K, got kinda lost. Actually no, very lost.
But we made it lah, nonetheless.
Took 3 shuttlebuses and 2 taxis.
Crazy, but thank God it was with good company.
After Funkamania, went to have dinner with a few of them.
From waiting for hours for my food, to playing Don't Forget the Show.

Went home soon after, again kinda lost with M.K.
Teruk lah, so foreign to our own small little dot country.
But we still made it home(:

when it fits perfectly.

someone like you.

2009-01-15T14:43:00.002+08:00

when perfect became so simple.

accompanied M.K(: for late night supper at the Kopitiam last night.
FYI, it's been awhile since I had such late night hangouts.
AND then, yours truly slept at 3am-ish.
I was actually jamming in my mini dance studio coz' I couldn't sleep.
With the company of Matt' Kratt, Jo'Love and Aminah throughout the young night.

Woke up like a sloth this morning.
Dragging myself to the toilet, bus stop, MRT station and TO SCHOOL.
(i know, i know. Serve me right for sleeping so late. Tsk! -_-)

School was draggy.
Hanged out with the other IG mates at class W15N because our Wellness was locked.
headed back to class, and now class has ended.

We're gonna have a jamming session later.
Yessahh!
now THIS is what I signed up for!
Just dance like no one's watching.
(:

everything you do, makes me wanna smile.

one step at a time.

2009-01-14T02:41:00.000+08:00

when you can't wait any longer
but there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
it's your faith that makes you stronger
the only way you get there
is one step at a time

Today was penat day.
went to school, slept during 2nd break.
aminah, deni, hakim and amirah all now know how buruk I am when I sleep.
yet, they still love me. NYAHAHA.

after school.
A,J and Z were all set and ready for P.E/dance.
we ran up 12 storeys and probably half of woodlands.
astaga mama kosa.
went back to the studio, with the sudden cold ventilation of the aircon running through our shirts.
attempted doing the air freeze after that, and ended up almost doing a pike(?) with jason and joann laughing at me.
-_-

soon after that, we left and headed to KFC to eat with everyone else.
had our usual over-dosage of laughters.
and went home, ALSO with another overdose of laughters.

now here I am, blogging.
and wondering if things have changed.
might?
hope not.

*if you dont, imy.

tears of happiness.

2009-01-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

today was a day filled with lots of thinking.
Days spent with A & J.

shared life stories.
probably remembered till our hair turns grey.
shared love stories.
be it past or present, boys still makes us blush and squirm.
shared just stories.
filled with laughter and happiness.

full of laughs.
please know, i'll always have the backs of you both.
today, a Monday.
fatigue, confusion, angst, i think we ended up with the love for this sisterhood built together with the love of shushi{codeword}.

then when the night fell.
nature took it's turn to make me think.
think about you.
wondering if you're thinking the same.
think about them.
wondering if their change would bring the end.
think about life.
wondering how much can happen in my almost 19 years in life.

and thank you for reliving me of what I almost died from feeling today.
(:

walk away.

2009-01-12T15:03:00.002+08:00

I don't mean to scare you, or push you away.
Cause I'm not tryin to rush anything
But when I look into your eyes, I'm afraid of what you may say.

tell me, it's not what I think it is.

-cross fingers, and wishes upon a shooting star-

curiosity.

2009-01-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

It's almost 1am.
I'm waiting on Desperate Housewives to start.

I've been thinking.
Do we all know how to live life?
To just stop rushing, meeting deadlines, comparing yourself with someone else and doing stuff that keeps you stressed out and squeezes the LIFE out of you.

When will one realize, it's time to just breathe and be thankful that we've got a good life?
Not exclusive, but enough to make you smile.
Having people that care about you, may not be the ones you want to be caring for you, but still lucky to have someone loving you enough to care.

Plus, what happens if life's too short to let someone know you care?
We all always say life's too short, but we're just to concerned that we may be neglected after spilling the truth.
I'm sure we're all guilty of that, thus keeping it mum.

I don't know.
I guess that's what makes us human.
We think, HARD.
We love, and unfortunately, hate.
And apparently, we rule the world.
I think it's the period talking.

Peace.

RPresenting To The Fullest II

2009-01-11T16:35:00.000+08:00

the production went well.
emceeing was awesome fun!

the ones who worked together, rocked more than ever.
the whole competition was interesting(:
kids did me proud, and they were so good on stage!

after everything, we spent our $3 coupons like crazy!
typical Singaporeans.
Get alot of stuff for free, and end up with a lot of leftovers.
Nyahaha.

Had dinner with Syafiq, Zoo and Hakim.
Went home soon after, and slept till the next day.
(:

today, was home all day.
bored.

tomorrow's school.
bored.

someone put some excitement in my life, yes?
please.

till I see you again(:

such bliss.

2009-01-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

Today was a a great day(:

Skipped school today, to hang out with Mr. Firefighter.
Went to Song & Song at Tampines.
IT WAS HUGE!!!!

Didn't get exactly what we were looking for, but still managed to not come out of S&S empty-handed. (:
Had our freshly-made juices after that.
Then went to RP for my meeting and his practice.

Managed to show of my Live in Colour to him, NYAHA.
Cause we could catch a couple of episodes of ABDC before 5pm.
and psst, we he have to do this more often ok?

After meeting was done, Zoo and I practiced emcee-ing.
turned out not so bad, we were pretty awesome about the whole thing.
danced a bit, and went home.

Now, I can't sleep.
Again.
I have an interview to ACE tomorrow, a test to sit through after school and rehearsals to go for after.

So goodnight, everyone.
I'm staying awake for now till I have nothing left to do anymore.
<3

silent grins.

2009-01-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

a day off from school.
such a bliss.

But miss Jo'Love still managed to wake me up bright and early in the morning.
wehh.
had a meeting with Zaini, and came up with a script for the emceeing on Saturday.
(:

I think Zoo and I will make awesome emcees for that day! Haha, we made Jo laugh when we practiced.
So that counts?
Heeeeeeee.

Today was total drama at RP.
Featuring me and my wallet. -_-
I kinda lost it, Jo'Love calmed me down, accompanied me to trace back our steps, and WE FOUND IT!
(((((:

so tomorrow's gonna be another great day.
and I can't wait, really I can't!
so I may wanna sleep early tonight and tomorrow will come faster than I know it.

how does someone make someone smile from the inside out just by smiling even when that someone is not there? Heee I know how.

School all over again.

2009-01-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

I wasn't as ready for school as it was for me.
It was a terribly LONG day of class.
And a not so bad after class end-of-the-day for me.
Rehearsed with Teenage Freakshow(:
such joy to life, and then went home to a bowl of maggi and mother dearest.

It's a short and sweet post tonight.

*and you just made the wrong move.

PS:
SGCians, and whoever I may know, I'm having a birthday chalet on the 25th and 26th of February. Please tag or text, if you're in. (:
And those who were around for my New Year's, you only have one choice. MUST COME! :D

Year 2009.

2009-01-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

A new year, a new take on life.

My 2009 was spent with the bestest anyone could have ever spent their NYE with.
Favourite Woman, Khalis, Joann, Syafiq, Natasha, Suling, Jason, Rey, Monique, Sister and Irah.

Even though, they made me get ready just to take a walk to my bus stop, and wait for them at Bishan.
No words can describe how simple and priceless I felt when we counted down to the new year at the most loudest in town, infront of a box(:

With dinner of prawns, squids, fried mee hoon and tasteless chocolate cake with good intentions.

From all 9 of us being in the kitchen, shouting at one another, to playing Taboo, STILL shouting at one another.

It was the best nights of my life.
Thanks crew, I love you the most.

Happy 2009 people of the world.

I hope you know,
I really like having you around(: